OKAY

So... I don't really know what to say here because I'm not sure what Friday meant... what that kiss meant, but here I go anyway. Despite the fact that I'm kinda going out on a limb to get hurt again, and maybe that's my own fault.

I miss you. Really really really miss you and I don't know what else I'm supposed to say. Ever since friday I've been so out of it because I can't stop thinking about you and about us and how we were before I moved and I feel like shit because I can't help but wonder 'what if I didn't go to BC?' And what if that was kind of.. my big mistake?

I dunno if you noticed every time you made me cry when we were talking, like when you said you treated me like shit - because you didn't. You are... you were (?) the best friend a girl could ask for. You're amazing and no one has treated me like that before or since then, and it hurts. I loved that feeling.

I do remember the night were we didn't do anything or the times when we'd just lie in bed after and whatever... and... I dunno, maybe it was just me - but I really liked those nights (don't get me wrong you're great in bed!) or the nights when we'd go out for coffee and stuff like that and I miss it. I miss you.

Fuck -- now this probably just sounds stupid...

So okay fuck... You kissed me! What the hell was that?? I liked it, I want it - but all it did is make me want more and I can't have more because you have a GF ...

What am I supposed to do?

I really... really need you to tell me, because I don't know anymore.

Yay *happy dance* haven't been there in a long time so I'm pretty excited haha. I dunno - I'm really not doing anything other than that. Work has been kinda hellish - though I'm really not sure why. Life has been kind of hellish as well though; again I have no reasonable explanation for that, but what can I say - thats just the way it is.

UGH did not make any comic progress what so ever, and wont tonight either... lets say I'll update MONDAY! that works better I think because I have Sunday and Monday off. I'll have time to do a bit of work I hope.

I have 8 cans of coke sitting around me... wow -- and two bags of chips, a piece of pizza, and two tubs of candy - HOW THE FUCK DO I STAY SKINNY!? Whatever.. no matter. Maybe I should start eating healthier or something. Who knows, I don't really care, as long I don't like.. die because of it. That wouldn't be too cool... The death bit I mean.

And I need to get ready to go to Divas.. ie - eating, washing laundry and taking A shower.... Don't need to be stinky while i pick up chicks ;) hahahahahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA like that would ever happen *feels all lonely and shit* I need to get laid.

Well, Vortex 8 was so much fun! I had a blast, met some new people chatted, danced, drank, hahah It was a great time. The next one will be just a good, I know it, and am very excited!! It's nice to go somewhere and just be 'free' and not care about what everyone else thinks of you.

Other than that, I'm moving on the 15th of August. I'm moving in with Cammi and Gabe and Brodie, which will be very exciting! I can't wait!! Work is going really well. Despite not getting as many hours as I would like, everything is going really really awesome. Life is looking up for me right now!

I'm going out to Bradwell with Dad and Cathie today staying until tomorrow. I'm kinda excited about that. Would like to be able to get some work done on my comics though. The first new styled page is supposed to be up (has to be) by Aug. 1st, and Unless I get working here that isn't going to happen! Fuck....

Well it will, I have to get it up and I'm going to. I already have two (maybe three) story lines all planned out, it's just the drawing part that's getting me stuck right now.

however, maybe these couple of days off will be good for me, and by august I'll be back up and ready to go!

I guess I'm just kinda not feeling so well lately. Life's been kinda shitty toward me, and my comic and art plans aren't going quite the way I wish they were. I mean... I am still updating the comics, and it's fun! I love it. I just seem to have run out of time to COLOR them. and I hate hate hate simple black and white line drawing comics. I think they're stupid and ugly.

I mean.. I love black and white comics... as long as there is shading. but... I dunno. I can't do that with my comics. It's very frustrating and time consuming... and this is just a hobby - I don't want to spend my entire life slaving away with drawings that I don't find fun or worthwhile... (don't take that the wrong way though, please...)

I am getting back to it. I am updating, and I do love it, and I want to keep doing it! It makes me happy.

Maybe I'm just a bit confused about everything right now. I have a couple days off that I'll be using to draw and write and hopefully things keep working out for me.

Okay, so now I feel kind of bad for neglecting my journal, but hey.. in good news The comic now has a Guestbook (I had actually forgotten about getting one until my friend pointed out that the link to it didn't work!
OOoops!

But IT's there now, and a storyline is on it's way, and

And I think thats it in the way of comic news. In other news - I'm learning to draw furry's... Their fun! I really enjoy it. I find them a lot easier to draw than people.. which.. I dunno, maybe that's kind of strange? Whatever.

And hmm...

What else can I update?

OH! yeah I'm writing a couple stories again. You can find them at My FP Account Enjoy -- leave a comment or two if you wish...

Got some new arts on my DA Account as well So.. you can check that out too.. if you want.

Not doing anything exciting this week. I've got two days off work, so I'm going t spend that time drawing more comics to make sure this two week hiatus shit doesn't happen again!

Much loves!

So -- nothing happens to me. Ever...

Work I guess, that's about it. Working on the comic and the comic website - and That's cool! The more I get done there the better it is. Then I can start whoring it out :P I don't even want to put a banner in my sig's yet.. just because I don't.. want too many people thinking It's all.. stupid and stuff.

And right now, I only have 11 comics up.. or something like that. I want to have about 25 up before I really start telling too many people.

I have lots DRAWN, but not so many colored yet. Unfortunately. but it only takes about half an hour to color and put the text into them, so that's not bad. I can get a few done at one time. Last night I got three done, so go me :)

I need to do some more - Young School Stupid Book comics though, so that I can get that crowd. My brothers friends mostly. It was their class that made the stupid book a possibility after all. Not to say that their stupid... well yeah okay - they are pretty dumb sometimes! haha ahh well...

But yeah, I really havn't been doing anything. Saw Speed Racer with some friends the other day - well.. a week ago or so.. but yeah - good movie! I liked it :) And I recommend it.

That's it!

~~ Bray

So?

Did you get your free comic book?

I have to admit, I had forgotten, but then I found a couple on the bus, and I took them. Go me :)

have a good one!

May Day

So, I've started using Safari instead of Firefox, and I like it a lot better! I'm just hoping my website doesn't look too different with it. Though I'm really not sure why it would. In any case; it is by far the best web browser I have used thus far! I don't plan on switching anytime soon.

And.. as for the comic related stuff, I have 9 comics drawn and colored, and a total of 13 not yet colored or scanned onto the computer yet. But those will get done in just a couple days. Work and illness (and having a social life) has dropped me back a bit, but until I have a 30 comic buffer, I'm not even going to start putting comics up. So wish me luck, in truth I'm not that far away yet.

Also, I want to make sure the website is looking as near perfect as possible before I start showing off, so that will give me some more time to draw comics and tweak the site. Look for May Days to start updating June 1st. I really don't have any hope of it being done before then, but I will be posting updates of progress until then.

May Day off!